Happiness

Today, I had a pretty amazing experience. I am not usually an outgoing smiles all around type person. I usually keep to myself, and keep my head down.

Since I graduated University and moved away from my University town I've been staying with my grandparents, which is fun, I just don't know anyone my age. So spending every day just hanging out by yourself, or going grocery shopping with your nana could cause some to get lonely. I've been enjoying it. I've spent a lot of time thinking about how I want my life to be, and how I will make it happen. I started this blog, where I find myself every day day dreaming about posts, taking pictures and enjoying myself.  Even if no one were to ever look at my little space of the web, I'd be okay with just having somewhere, and doing something I genuinely love.

While I've been working on this self discovery, I've also made a pact with myself to be happy. I've been trying to get my anxiety to a level that I don't have to think about reminding myself to breathe, and worrying about what everyone thinks of me.

I love music, nearly everyone does, I like music that makes you want to dance, dance around in your bedroom or dance in the grocery store. Instead of thinking what other people think of the weird girl with a smile on her face bouncing to the beat of the music walking to get the milk for her granny I just do it.

Today, this older woman was looking at the milk when I skipped over to her with the smile on my face and the bounce in my step. She actually stopped me and told me it is rare for people to express happiness anymore, that no one seems like they are genuinely happy, and that she loved seeing someone with a smile grabbing some 2% milk.

The smile may have gotten a little bigger... just a little though. It got me to thinking though- isn't it sad that an older lady has to stop a young 20 something with a smile on her face and say that it is refreshing? Being in University I met a lot of people who were there, or in certain programs because it was what their parents wanted, or what they felt they were required to do, why is it like this? What is so wrong with being happy?

Needless to say, I'm loving this new outlook I have on everything. Why not just be happy? Anyways, That's my goal. I will continue to deal with anxiety that makes me relive every moment of the day before I go to bed, analyzing every minute detail to think of what could be perceived of me until it snowballs into me thinking about something that happened 2 years ago. I will continue to have to count to 4 as I inhale and to 4 as I exhale while laying in bed, tricking myself into thinking about something else. But I will also be happy. I am challenging myself to write a blog, like so many others do, and ignoring what others will say, because I want to.

I refuse to be held down by opinions, instead I want to be the reason an older lady smiles, knowing some 20 something loved getting the bag of milk for her nana.

The Weekend Update

*this post is both a mini-haul and a weekend update.

Recently, I finished University and moved in with my grandparents. Since I moved I haven't really spent any time with my friends who now live about 2 hours away. This weekend, my best friends son turned 3. Since this kid is literally my favourite person maybe ever, right now I had to be there. She tells me all the time about how he asks if they are going to go to my house, or if we are going to hang out, so I made the trip down for his birthday. He loves bubbles, so I brought along a variety of bubbles.

Since I was going down for his birthday, I had to see some of my other friends, and one such friend and I have a long standing date for Froyo (Frozen Yogurt) at this place called YoYo's. Where you get to make Yo yogurt Yo way. Essentially you walk around, pick a flavour of froyo (or sorbet) fill it as much as you want and then add the toppings. This place has everything from strawberries and kiwi to gummy worms and chocolate chips. They also have a variety of sauces, like chocolated, melted marshmallow and more. We like this place because they have dairy free options, the sorbets, as well as all of their other yogurts are non-fat gluten free.

I opted for Birthday Cake frozen yogurt- it tastes like they pureed a birthday cake I swear. And got strawberries, chocolate chips and crushed m&m's, I also got chocolate sauce.

My friend was at work, so I had her son, and I got him the Birthday Cake frozen yogurt, strawberries, gummy bears and fuzzy peaches (what is the point of being the cool aunt/babysitter and not giving them a massive amount of sugar and then handing them back!?)

Whenever my best friend and I are together we go to drugstores. We cannot pass a Shopper's Drugmart without having to enter it. Most of the time we leave coated in swatches and a bag probably bigger than we anticipated, or more products than we thought. It's an unspoken agreement between the two of us. I picked up a couple of things that I had been eyeing that were on sale (sales are code for buyitnow, buyitnow, buyitnow.)

I grabbed this Physician's Formula Trio of Eyeliners, they were only $10 for 3, which equals out to $3.33 each. NOT BAD. I love the pigmentation and the quality of them, they are so smooth, and I cannot wait to use them for real. I got them in the neutral pack, but they also had eye colour specific trios (brown, blue and green).

We also hit up the drugstore with the NYX display (there is one store in all of Peterborough that carries it!) I got a single eyeshadow for my crease, I decided on the colour- "Blame it on Midnight" I picked this colour to be the perfect go-to blending shade for my crease, that will go with literally everything.

I also got this Lip product, it's just one of their liptsticks, in the colour peach.

And right next to NYX was Revlon, where they had one left of the limited edition, spring 2014 Lip Butter's in Wild Watermelon. I didn't even think about not buying it. I love the colour!

I also got the Revlon Colourburst Laquer Balm, it was on sale for $7.99 and I really wanted to try it, so I picked it up too. I got it in the colour Whimsical.

Now to jump back a couple of days, before I had left I received my Hautelook order in the mail. About a month and a bit ago, maybe 6 weeks, Hautelook had Urban Decay on for a really good price. I'm all about a deal, and it was payday, so it was destiny. Fate works that way, it has to.

I knew eventually, that's my "excuse" my Primer Potion would run out, I've been working on it for almost a year- and they had the Primer Potion in "Greed" for $9.99! That was a no brainer. I wanted to try a pigmented one, to see if it would provide any kind of coverage for a birth mark on my inner corner (left eye).

I also got the 24/7 glide on pencil in mushroom. I've tried it once and loved it, where I put it on towards the lower lash line, and used this next product to blend it out. For $9.99 it was worth the price to try it!?

Lastly, I got the Blending Eye Brush- because you can never have too many of those- it was also $9.99, I use this to blend out the harsh lines of the mushroom eye pencil, and it gives great colour on the eyeballs.

So that's it, my favourite 3 year old and a whole bunch-o makeups all crammed into a 28 hour trip.

Hope everyone had a fantastic weekend! What did you get up too!?

Going Away Party

Saturday was my last day at my job for Tim Horton's. I'm moving to go to a new school for a more focused career based education, compared to my bachelor's degree, which I will be done this month. Because I'm moving away obviously I had to quit my job, which is really bittersweet for me. I'm so excited to be moving onto the next chapter, but the last one was just so amazing I don't want it to end. 

So in honour of my last day, a bunch of the craziest most amazing loving people I know went out for dinner and a very reserved night on the town (this was not the case at all). Since we are all over the age of 19 (in Canada that's the legal age) we went out and did a little bit of a bar hop, we only went to two so more like a skip. These people are a mixture of older friends from working at Timmies for the last two and a half years, and some are people that just started and quickly made their way into our little clique. 

It was wonderful having these people who I care so much about go out with me for a great night, there was no drama, just a bunch of laughs and memory making. For me especially it was so important to go out with them, because with school winding down I need to focus on exams and some final papers, so it was the last chance I have and also because we used to go out all the time together (summer is more of our time, winter everyone wants to stay inside!) 

So here are a bunch of selfies from the night, taken in some horrible lighting. But either way, these people rock and I love them all so so so much. 

This is my bestie, surprisingly we have been friends for 2 years and this is our first photo together. 

For some reason I love pictures of selfies being taken!

This was our saturday night, It was a total blast and I'm so happy these people are in my life. 

Hello! Bonjour! Hola!

Hi!

My name is Mikayla, I'm  21 (almost 22!) years old. I'm in my final weeks of university and absolutely crazy about all things fashion and beauty related. I live in Canada, a lovely country covered in snow about 8 months of the year. For the past four years my life has revolved around a lot of stereotypical Canadian things, I'm in school for a Bachelor of Arts in History and Canadian Studies (yes, I have studied my own country for 4 years) and working at one of my many local Tim Hortons. For those of you who don't know, Tim Hortons is to Canada what Starbucks is to the rest of the world. Next year, I embark on a one year college program to study Human Resources Management, and want a job in Toronto! 

I decided to start this blog because I have spent countless hours on the internet reading blogs and watching videos about makeup, beauty, fashion and more and want to have a place to write about some of my favourite things. I've always been a girl who loved to dress up, go shopping and try on new things, the same applies to my love of makeup. I am always on the look for something new, and being a student, affordable. I've actively been wearing makeup for the last 10 years of my life, I competitively Figure Skated (which required dramatic makeup to be visible on the ice).  

Lately, my life has been consumed with university, two jobs, and a social life. One of my best friends is my biggest makeup pal, we go shopping at our Shopper's Drug Mart (like a CVS or Walgreens) a couple times a week, and the girls know us by name! I'm hoping this blog is a way for me to transition from all of the things that keep me busy, to being unemployed and graduated (haha!) 

I guess, Hello, welcome to my blog, and I hope you want to read it! because I really want to write it! 

xo, Mikaylaaas

ps. if you want to see my face, this is me!